The month of June was an amazing month for me. It feels as though it was just a really great dream! I launched my book, Destined: The Unspoken Revealed, and the signing was a huge success. Since the launch, I have received countless emails, texts and phone calls about how the book in some way personally affected someone. To think, I was afraid to share my story! It has been a great month indeed.
In the midst of all the commotion I found myself downplaying my excitement. Yes, I was extremely happy to begin this new journey of my life. Yes, I was appreciative of all the love I received from friends and family. Yes, I was touched by the support of complete strangers who invested in my project. But somehow, I managed to convince myself that in order to remain humble I had to “downplay” my excitement. Crazy, right?
Why is it so hard for us to celebrate ourselves? We approach each accomplishment like we are walking on eggshells in fear of … what? I learned a lot about who I really am this past month. I’ve learned that I struggled so much with rejection and that the biggest offender was myself! Heart questions began to surface. Why is everyone else so much happier about my book than I am? Why do they have so much confidence in little ‘ol me? What do they see that I can’t see? I realized that I was so busy trying to be a better me that I didn’t appreciate who I’d become – an overcomer, a survivor, an encourager. I wasn’t being humble I was being insecure! Funny how the heart reveals the ugly truth.
Being humble is vital – but there is a difference in being humble and being insecure. It is more than okay to celebrate your accomplishments and pat yourself on the back every now and then! You deserve it!
If you don’t celebrate you won’t appreciate!
God, help me to see myself as you see me. Help me to find joy even in the smallest blessings. Amen.